1. For all the years I struggled with this habit, I had been blaming God for my aggravated need for sex. I would question Him as to why He had given me such a strong sex drive and had made me so aware sexually, and then furthermore, expected of me to live a pure life. It seemed unfair and even cruel to be created in this way (or so I thought) and then having to live a pure life inwardly and outwardly. It was only after I left masturbation behind me that I realised it was a major factor which caused my ongoing aggravated sex drive and sexual awareness whenever I came into close contact with other people. I NEVER EXPECTED COMPLETE FREEDOM FROM THIS STRUGGLE, YET STARTED TO EXPERIENCE IT AFTER I ABANDONED MASTURBATION.
2. I used to feel lonely and isolated sometimes even when I was among people. I did not expect for this to ever change; I thought I was a "loner". YET THIS EXPERIENCE GRADUALLY LEFT ME AFTER I ABANDONED MASTURBATION. I became a content person that could mix with others without any problems and without being isolated and lonely all the time. I never linked this to masturbation before, only experienced the change afterwards.
3. I used to think that I'll always remain "aware" of the female body as a sex object due to my lesbian past. Yet after I abandoned masturbation this awareness faded and in time disappeared altogether.

With these few examples of what changed in my life, I desire to encourage you to consider abandoning this habit, which proved to have a very unhealthy impact in my life. I learned through this experience that it does not help to be "soft" on sin, because Rom 6:23 is true - "the wages of sin is death". Because I experienced the release and was taken by surprise by the changes that took place in me as a person and the level of freedom I experienced afterwards, I now know that the struggle to move on to complete freedom was worth every bit of energy it took. God is indeed faithful, and I, who used to be completely addicted to sex and excessively aware sexually, can today say I am completely "asleep" sexually and free from this constant strong temptation. If God could do it for me, He can do it for you!

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